Love, Music & me

This is not a stupid article or something, will I guess this is not an article at all, It's just something I'm thinking about.
Well how do I start? Ya, In my entire life I fell in love for 2 times, which were (if I could say) an impossible relation, for me every perfect girl (something like soul mate, but I don't believe in soul mates) has to be an older girl, who has something makes it impossible for us to have a happy ending.
My first was with a girl who was 3 months older (not a big deal), but we were form different planets, like that I'm from Pluto, and she's from Mercury, which should have end up (and it did) in a very little time, my second (My soul mate) we had everything in common, but she was 3 years older, and we couldn't get over it so it didn't last, and there was almost a 3rd, which I cut my mind off cause it (as i think) an impossible one, i guess shes older, and also have another religion (this thing just get my nerves off, the religion thing, that says no happy ending).

What I was getting to say is that all of this happened while music was in my way, I remember every time I fell to love I listened to too much Jazz(as usual), and also to Julia Botros, Bryan Adams, Bonjovi (which I refer to them as my old friends).

What I was thinking about yesterday, is why do I love Jazz that much, well of course because I love there music, the way the notes come, the freedom it gives, but after a deep thought there was something else more important, it is because it gives me something I really need, I usually don't have, and if i have it, it gives me a lot more, it gives me love, Jazz so full of love, I feel jazz like a delicious wine, when you put a little in your mouth, you just want it to remain there cause it tastes so good you don't want it to go to your stomach, but you also want all of your veins full of, so you swallow it, and take another, and that's love.

I feel that music hasn't left something of your life that didn't get into it, but when it comes to love Jazz is the Master, I remember when my first relationship was ended I heard a track called After the Rain, It was the first time I hear that track and really feel it, I just couldn't stop crying, and like that a lot.

For me now I'm alone, desperate, but I have Jazz with me.

Thanks for reaching here

Getting Sick

I really hate to get sick, but what I hate more than that is to take medicine or see a doctor, I really prefer to remain sick than that, so I never took a sick leave cause I never had a proof that I've been sick, which were my annual leaves come in handy, I really wish I could get rid of that habit. :-)

A definition for War

The word war had always had a definition for me, I just want to say it here.
War is when two people (usually soldiers) try to kill each other, not because they disgrace each other, or even hate each other, but because of other two people (usually leaders) setting on fancy chairs, having fancy dinners, living a fancy life have a misunderstanding between them.
I Just hope that all the people who fights in these wars really understood this definition.

The Open Window

Yesterday, I was so sick that I even couldn't get out of my bed, I remember that the weather was so cold, I also remember that every time I woke up; I see this window that is slightly opened; and every time, I just want to go and close it, I really want that because the weather was so cold, and I felt that it (in some way) is responsible about me feeling that. In the end I just think (imagine) that I got off my bed and closed that stupid window. And when I wake up again, I see that the stupid window is still open; the first thing I think about is didn't I close that window.

In the end when I physically closed that window, I realized at that moment that the only thing I badly wanted all day is to close that window, and I also realized that if someone wanted something so much, he would imagine that his wish came true, but it's only a matter of time until he wakes up.

Circle of Trust

From a lot of time I believed that every human being has some kind of a circle (or maybe a sphere) around him that separates him from other humans. This circle (or sphere) starts to shrink with another human as long as his relation with that person becomes friendlier.
So if you can notice yourself when you are introduced to other people, at first you try to keen the maximum space between you and him, as your relation gets stronger with him, the physical distance between you and him just shrinks. If anybody tries to break the borders of this circle, you just get nervous, so if you had ever noticed people in the elevator, as the space is so little, everybody just acts weird, like you see somebody looking at his watch, another just looking at the ceiling … .
The other day I was introduced to someone, I don't know about his mentality, but every time he talks to me he gets (physically) closer, I just try to get away, and a long loop of this just starts to happen, after a little while I was very annoyed so I told him that his breath is killing me (it's just to let him keep some space). In the end of the day I apologized for what happened and explained to him everything, for some reason I don't understand I felt that he was more offended by what I say more than when I told him that breath thing. Can anybody explain?

PC WORLD: Firefox is the best product of the year

Today I was surfing the internet and by chance I went to the PC World site, I stopped at the best products of the year, and as Expected Firefox is on the top of the list, and IE is not mentioned :p.

Aboud & I (Just a Pic)

Aboud (Left) & Me (Right)

Where did you want to go yesterday?

It's not that I like to pick on Microsoft. It's just that they keep doing things that make me shake my head in amazement.

Take; please take, for example, the revelation that Microsoft is working on a significant new feature for Windows Vista, known as Restart Manager.

Guess what it does? Yes, it's designed to update the operating system or applications without having to reboot the entire machine!

Jim Allchin, the co-president of Microsoft's platform products and services division and one of the few folks at Microsoft that I respect, thinks that this is a pretty big deal.

Well, he's right. It is.

It's just that, well, we've been able to do this in Linux/Unix land since... the 80s?

I really don't know. I've been using Unix machines since the early 80s and try as I might, I can't recall when I last used one that required me to reboot after installing most upgrades and patches.

I know there were some machines I had to do it on, but honestly, I can't recall one since the early 90s and I'm having real trouble even remembering what the last box was where I had to do it on for most patches.

Suffice it to say that by the time Microsoft rolled out its first semi-serious server operating system -- Windows NT 3.1 in 1993 -- Unix administrators were already used to making major changes on their servers without having to worry about telling all the users to get off the network.

And now, twelve years later, Microsoft considers it a big deal that it's finally getting around to adding true "availability" to their next-generation operating system! This might be out by 2006!!

Folks? With "advanced" technology like this, how can I not make fun of Microsoft!?

Perhaps they should change the slogan from "Where do you want to go today?" to "Where did you want to go yesterday?"


--Steven J. Vaughan-Nichols

I guess Microsoft's new slogan should be Where do you want to restart today, hehehe
I've been using Linux for about 4 years now, the only restart I need after an update is when I update the kernel (or install a new kernel) well it's good that Microsoft could catch up with some of the 2oth century technology.

Maxell to offer 300GB holographic discs 'late 2006'

Maxell will ship its first holographic storage system late next year, the company has pledged.

The storage specialist will initially offer a removable system based on 300GB media and capable of transferring data at a rate of 20MBps, Maxell said. However, the company said the technology, designed by InPhase Technologies, is capable of achieving 1.6TB per disk - and that's uncompressed capacity - with a 120MBps bandwidth.

InPhase was founded in December 2000 by Lucent, and has been working on holographic storage - in which data is encoded as a 3D pattern written and read by laser beam - ever since. In addition to the colossal storage capacity, InPhase promises a data archive life of over 50 years, not much different to the longevity claimed by most optical media makers - a CD-RW for instance will typically retain data for 20-100 years, depending on which manufacturer you speak to.

InPhase isn't the only company promoting holographic storage. Japan's Optware - which in July won $14m in funding from four companies, one of which was Toshiba; it also has backing from Intel Capital - is working on a DVD-sized holographic disc is says will hold more than 1TB of data with a throughput of 1Gbps.

The format is dubbed HVD - Holographic Versatile Disc - and Optware is already pushing a 200GB HVD-RW disc type through the HVD Alliance, an organisation supported by Optware, Fuji Photo and half-a-dozen or so Japanese chemicals companies. ®

Magnolia

What a movie …

I was looking for that movie for a long time, but I just couldn't find it, Until yesterday I had the chance to see it as it was broadcasted on the TV and it really dazzled me, If you haven't see this movie I hope you go and look for it first then come to continue here, as I don't want to ruin the story of the movie for you.

At first what is magnolia?

Magnolia is a magnificent shrub with exquisite heavily perfumed flowers, considered to symbolize femininity and beauty.

The movie is about one day in a lot of peoples lives, A man who is dying in cancer, his wife who finally learned to love him, his nurse who really tried to help him really hard, and a son of him who considers him dead, a show man (his show is something like What do kids think? I guess) who is also in the beginning of his end, with a wife who he had cheated on her, and a daughter that really hates him (I just couldn't catch the reason, if you did please tell me) who is also a Coke-addicted, a genius boy who is participating in the show, also his father who wants him to win, an ex-genius boy, who has made a record in that show, who also has lost all what he got in his life. A cop who is divorced and feeling lonely who in that day meets the daughter of that show man and falls in love with her, and also a mysterious boy who just meets with the cop, and the wife who is rapping a song, claiming that it's telling the truth, and also giving the answer to who is the killer.

There was no center story in this movie, but a couple of threaded stories going on who in some way interacts with each other, going from one detail to another, but in my point of view almost all of them were going to a change point that day, the wife wanted learned to love her husband finally, and her conscious is torturing her for cheating on him, her husband admits his faults toward lily which is the mother of his kid, who named himself in another name (he was Jack but everybody knew him as Frank), a reporter shocks this Frank with the real story of his life, This show man find out that he has cancer, and tries to fix things up with his daughter, and for falls in the middle of his show, the genius boy at last refuses that his father is not treating him right, he also refuses to go on stage for the one-on-one competition, so his team losses, he refuses to be a joke for the audience, the ex-genius boy who lose his job, who discovers that he is only spending money on things he doesn't need, who just says that he just knew useless information, none of this information helped him with his life (I guess he was also gay, I don't know), … etc.

There are some little things that happened in the movie I really couldn't fully understand.

The Frogs rain I know it means that strange things could happen, but is that it all, why frogs, what do they symbolize.

This mysterious kid, who is he? And what was he actually talking about? I couldn't get it really.

What does the dog eating morphine meant, the only thing it mad that it died in the end with the dying man, does it mean anything else.

If you know please tell me.

I really want to see this movie again …

A bone to the dog is not charity. Charity is the bone shared with the dog, when you are just as hungry as the dog.

This is a saying by the great writer Jack London, I just really love it.

Jack London is one of those people who really influenced me in the beginning of my life, perhaps the only Novel I read for him was The Iron Heel translated in Arabic in the name of (العَقِب الحديدية). It was written in 1907, it discusses some events that Jack London predicts that would happen, it's as some kind of story was found in after about 600 years from now, and then he starts reading it with commenting in it as it was really written in that age, the story begins in 1912, as to discuss the situation that lead to the Big Chicago Commune, which he predicts that this would be the first movement against the American Oligarch (which is type of an aggressive Capitalism) against the Labor.

This Story had really influenced me, as it was considered the Bible of the Socialism. That's because of the discussions which were in the story, They were the best discussions I ever saw, I really recommend this story.

These days I'm looking for another books for this writer, I found some of the on the Internet, but now I have to find time to read them.

I hope you could read the story, in Arabic or in English, it is really a good one.

أنا يوسف يا أبي

أَنَا يُوسُفٌ يَا أَبِي.
يَا أَبِي، إِخْوَتِي لاَ يُحِبُّونَنِي،
لاَ يُرِيدُونَنِي بَيْنَهُم يَا أَبِي

يَعْتَدُونَ عَلَيَّ وَيَرْمُونَنِي بِالحَصَى وَالكَلاَمِ

يُرِيدُونَنِي أَنْ أَمُوتَ لِكَيْ يَمْدَحُونِي

وَهُمْ أَوْصَدُوا بَابَ بَيْتِكَ دُونِي

وَهُمْ طَرَدُونِي مِنَ الحَقْلِ

هُمْ سَمَّمُوا عِنَبِي يَا أَبِي

وَهُمْ حَطَّمُوا لُعَبِي يَا أَبِي

حَينَ مَرَّ النَّسِيمُ وَلاَعَبَ شَعْرِيَ
غَارُوا وَثَارُوا عَلَيَّ وَثَارُوا عَلَيْكَ،
فَمَاذَا صَنَعْتُ لَهُمْ يَا أَبِي

الفَرَاشَاتُ حَطَّتْ عَلَى كَتِفَيَّ،
وَمَالَتْ عَلَيَّ السَّنَابِلُ،
وَالطَّيْرُ حَطَّتْ على راحتيَّ

فَمَاذَا فَعَلْتُ أَنَا يَا أَبِي،
وَلِمَاذَا أَنَا

أَنْتَ سَمَّيْتَنِي يُوسُفًا،
وَهُمُو أَوْقَعُونِيَ فِي الجُبِّ، وَاتَّهَمُوا الذِّئْبَ
وَالذِّئْبُ أَرْحَمُ مِنْ إِخْوَتِي..

أَبَتِ! هَلْ جَنَيْتُ عَلَى أَحَدٍ عِنْدَمَا قُلْتُ إِنِّي:
رَأَيْتُ أَحَدَ عَشَرَ كَوْكَبًا، والشَّمْسَ والقَمَرَ، رَأَيْتُهُم لِي سَاجِدِينْ.

محمود درويش

To listen to the song By Marcel Khalifah
Click Here!
It's so cool

In The Memory of Ra'afat Al-Boreeny

The moment I heard the news of the bombing, I couldn't imagine that in any chance I know any of the victims, The moment I heard that Ra'afat was there, I just couldn't ... I don't know.

I remember the first time I saw Ra'afat, I thought he was bluffing that he cares a lot about people, after a while of knowing him, it turned that he really cares a lot ... he was a very simple guy, who just want to live a natural life.
I just wish that all of this just didn't happen, I just wish that he could come back again, I would be waiting for a phone from him to tell me that he would be coming to spend the night in my house ... but I just know that this wont happen.

How simple your life could be when you don't know what's happening,
How miseries look simple when you don't know you're in them,
How painful a misery could be when it takes someone you love.
You would always be in our hearts
Ra'afat Al-Boreeny

Terror Attack in Jordan

Yesterday I was shocked as everybody with the three terrorist attacks in the middle of Amman; I was about 850m away from Grand Hayyat Amman, I just cannot stand what happened, I guess I'm still shocked.

I don't know what kind of people would do such a thing, what were they thinking in, killing innocent people, for almost nothing. Is this Islam, is this religion, I guess this is madness, what did somebody who was attending a Wedding reception, to deserve this kind of death.

Does this kind of people know how it feels to lose someone you love, I guess they never loved anyone; one of our company girls lost her fiancée in one of the explosions, I just cannot imagine her feeling right now.

Hoping for a better life,

"I lost my father and my father-in-law on my wedding night," the groom Ashraf Mohammad said. "The world has to know that this has nothing to do with Islam."

Happy Birthday Myself

Well, tomorrow I will finish 22 years of staying alive, every year at this day, after all the partying is over, I set with my self, and try to remember what have I done in the last year.
And as this year there would be no partying (None of my friends are in Jordan), I think I would do it now.
As I remember my last birthday, we were some bunch of guys who had some good time that evening (nothing really interesting just good time).

I remember I had the worst New Year day, a lot of troubles happened that night I just hate to remember.

I also remember that in the beginning of January I started taking German course at Goethe Institute. I met some interesting people there, also I have advanced a lot in the German language (as I knew nothing), I've finished four courses, and I'm off for the last 2 months, I will get back in the beginning of November.

Also in this year (at the beginning of May), I've quit my job at MSCT, and started the worst experience of my life by working at **** ******, this company (or some stupid store) has gone beyond any company which can get worst, I think they have reached the bottom and start digging, and I guess they are enjoying it, which made me leave my job after 3 months without even finding a new one. Which has made me Enjoy one of the worst days of my life, I was there, searching for a job, with no money, with almost no hope, this was the worst 3 weeks of the year, (but even though it's better than imagining your self working at **** ****** for the rest of the year).

This period just needed to end, and it did, I found a new good job at Maktoob.com Inc., which I'm still in (and I guess I would be for some time).

Here at Maktoob I found some new interesting people, and also a good working environment, I've learned a lot here, so I like it …

I guess this is a brief description of my life in the last year, I guess I would leave it as is.

Happy Birthday Me.

South Park new Episode 908

A Global Warming State of Emergency is declared in South Park this Wednesday, October 19 at 10:00 P.M. on Comedy Central

Global Warming is determined to be the cause of the massive flood that destroys a neighboring town. It’s a brand new episode of “South Park” entitled “Two Days Before the Day After Tomorrow,” premiering Wednesday, October 19 at 10:00 p.m. on Comedy Central.

The world’s largest beaver dam breaks and the waters overtake the adjacent town of Beaverton.. As the victims wait for help to arrive, everyone in South Park tackles priority number one: who is to blame? The President, the mayor, scientists, the press and even the flood victims themselves are all busy pointing fingers. Only Stan and Cartman know who’s really at fault.

Some JavaScript functions I use

/* This function is used to validate that a string contains only [A-Za-z0-9.-_] which are the only valid characters in an email, (or perhaps a username). */

function valid(str) {
for(var i = 0; i < str.length; i++) {
var charcode = str.charCodeAt(i);

/* A-Z */
if(charcode >= 0x41 && charcode <= 0x5A) {
continue;
}

/* a-z */
if(charcode >= 0x61 && charcode <= 0x7A) {
continue;
}

/* 0-9 */
if(charcode >= 0x30 && charcode <= 0x39) {
continue;
}

/* . - _ */
if(charcode == 0x2D charcode == 0x2E charcode == 0x5F) {
continue;
}

return false;
}

return true;
}




/* This function is used to test that an e-mail address looks logical. This function uses the function valid() above. */

function testemail(email) {
var atpos = email.indexOf("@");

if(atpos == -1) {
return false;
}

if(atpos == 0) {
return false;
}

var dotpos = email.indexOf(".", atpos+2);

if( dotpos == -1) {
return false;
}

if(dotpos == (email.length - 1) ) {
return false;
}

var fpart = email.substring(0,atpos);
var host = email.substring(atpos + 1, dotpos);
var domain = email.substr(dotpos +1);

if(!( valid(fpart) && valid(host) &amp;& valid(domain))) {
return false;
}

var afterat = email.substr(atpos + 1);
if(afterat.lastIndexOf(".") == (afterat.length - 1)) {
return false;
}

for(var i = 1; i < afterat.length; i++) {
if(afterat.charAt(i) == "." && afterat.charAt(i-1) == ".") {
return false;
}
}

return true;
}


/* This function is used to trim a string (Removes the spaces before and after). */

function trim(str) {
var from_start = 0;
var from_end = str.length - 1;
var return_value;

while(str.charAt(from_start) == ' ') {
from_start ++;
}

while(str.charAt(from_end) == ' ') {
from_end --;
}

if(from_end < from_start) {
return '';
}
return_value = str.substring(from_start,from_end+1);
return return_value;
}



/* Hope that these functions would be useful to somebody out there as they where useful to me, hope you enjoy. */

My First Blog Entry

This is just a test for the new blog